Clueless and concerned like Meg Ryan

Ok. So we all know who Meg Ryan is. America's sweetheart... Adorable "Shopgirl" Kathleen who is pen pals with anonymous "NY512" aka Tom Hanks. Or in another Tom & Meg movie, Sleepless in Seattle. Or my favorite - when Harry Met Sally.

Now... The better movie to relate my cluelessness to would be When Harry Met Sally. Which brings up the main theme of the movie of, "Can men and women just be friends?" Why? Well it's because just recently a close friend of mine has told me a good friend of mine whom I've always considered to be just a friend, may very well like me, thus bringing up another question, "Why does this seem to happen with my guy friend's and I?"

I've fallen into quite some nasty traps where great guy friend turns into want-to-be-boyfriend and things get awkward from there in.

I'm told my friendliness comes off more like flirting. I've been told I'm quite clueless to these happenings and occurrences.

I'm in an anxious state of mind because those few words from my friend has thrown me in a loop - I want to get as far away from this situation as possible.

I used to think I'm a good judge of character but now that I think of it, maybe I'm not.

How can I keep a friendship with a guy as platonic and non-romantic as possible?

I've heard in every girl-guy friendship you eventually have to come to this awkward point and decide between the both of you whether it will ever be more. This revelation is quite odd because I never saw the signs or ever thought there'd be a possibility. I'm not his type!!! All this time I've been trying to set him up with my one cute friend and thought our last hangout went swimmingly. They sat quite close and were bantering back and forth. It was very cute. The matchmaker in me was excited and full of glee.

Honestly, I am in a committed and loving relationship. I am most happy and secure with my lovely boyfriend of two years to ever even think of or have eyes for another man as a romantic interest.

Which makes me wonder am I seriously this dense or I need to draw up some more boundaries ASAP.

Sigh.

Summer here I come!

Summer officially begins today!!! My last final was on Thursday and today.. Will be full of things I haven't had a chance to do since school started. Yesterday I came home from work super tired. I had a bad day. Laid down on my bed, wrapped my blanket around me and slept for 8 hours. It was 1am when I woke up. Stomach was blaring sounds of hunger and I was thirsty. I noticed my phone had a few missed calls - bf bf coworker coworker best friend bf. wow. I guess I missed out on a great dinner last night. >_> I'm refreshed and no longer so bone achingly tired. As I write this I've been wke since 6am because I'm so refreshed. Did a little yoga this morning. Cleaned up the room finally and throwing stuff in boxes that I haven't use in ages. I need to learn how to downsize and sell some of my stuff.... With the start of summer I would like to go to the beach, see concerts, museums, and just enjoy the weather. Need to get back into shape since all my clothes are getting kinda tight. Also. Let's start deleting non-friends on FB. It's time to really clean out the closet.