Opening Up Is the Hardest Thing

♥ ***Random streams of consciousness.


Pictures of you, and pictures of me.
Stream by as I run down a hallway
Of falling red, maple leaves.

Your blurred face smiles back,
Sequentially into a future of make believe.

I'll always remember your large eyes,
And penchant for breaking into dance.
But these memories of you and I,
Are finally dying down, left to the past.

Yes still I'm running, but not so much in fearful gait.
Moving towards something else,
I can't seem to make out his perfect face.
You're smiling at me, arms outstretched,
Just waiting and waiting.

My words ring through:
Don't rush, don't push, and eventually babe:
I'll be at the same level as you,
Please, just be patient with me.

I'm sorry things turned out the way it had to be.
I still have dreams of lost friendships,
Of misunderstandings and broken feelings.
Remembering all that you've done,
I know the hardest thing was letting go.
For you to move on and live happily,
That route was best for you.

But of one thing you've taught me,
Never give into the pressure of falling back into love.
Cuz really, such a magical experience should never be forced,
And can only keep growing on foundations of trust.

As I muse on past happenings,
Let's get back to who we are,
And what you and I believe.

I love your turtle faces which make me laugh uncontrollably.
The way you lean down closer,
Just cuz I'm five inches shorter,
Proves to me you like me the way I am,
You're not trying to fix me.

You hold me tight, and refuse to let go.
I feel so close to you, I hope I show,
More than enough reassurance that my heart
Is opening up to you.

Let's keep this pace, a light-hearted walk,
With occasional mid-day naps in quiet parks.
I'll make sure I keep you smiling as much
As you keep me sane.

Thank you so much, my lovely Prince,
for always giving me your best.
I'm falling and this time, I'm not afraid.

I am ready for love.

Music & Lyrics Quoted Respectively by: India Arie

I am ready for love.
Why are you hiding from me?
I'd quickly give my freedom,
To be held in your captivity.

I am ready for love.
All of the joy and the pain.
And all the time that it takes,
Just to stay in your good grace.

Lately I've been thinking,
Maybe you're not ready for me?
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity.
They say watch what you ask for,
Cause you might receive...
But if you ask me tomorrow,
I'll say the same thing.

I am ready for love.
Would you please lend me your ear?
I promise I won't complain.
I just need you to acknowledge I am here.

If you give me half a chance,
I'll prove this to you:
I will be patient, kind, faithful and true.
To a man who loves music,
A man who loves art,
Respect's the spirit world,
And thinks with his heart.

I am ready for love.
If you'll take me in your hands,
I will learn what you teach...
And do the best that I can.

I am ready for love.
Here with an offering of:
My voice.
My Eyes.
My soul.
My mind.

Tell me what is enough,
To prove I am ready for love.

I am ready.

♥ ♥ ♥